Learning to live by heart - Mark 6:30-34;53-56



July 22, 2018


            For the last 20 years or so, my primary individual spiritual practice has been meditation.  I would like to share a version of a meditation that I have been doing recently.  Maybe you have meditated before and maybe you have not. Maybe you did once and decided never to do it again.  But there are no meditation police running around.  I can’t tell what is going on in your mind. So, if you want to think about what you’re going to have for dinner or put together your shopping list or zone out for a few minutes, I won’t be able to tell.
            But if you are willing, I invite you to get comfortable where you sit.  I recommend feet flat on the floor, hands resting empty and comfortable in your lap.  Sit upright but don’t be stiff.  What’s more important than any of that is simply to be aware of your body, just as it is.  And if it would help you to concentrate, I invite you to close your eyes, either all the way or just partially.
            Now bring your attention to your breath and become aware of your breath, just as it is. There is no special way to breath.  Your breath already knows how to breathe, so however you are breathing is just right.  So, relax!
            Now bring your attention to your heart center.  That would include your physical heart, but would also be something more, something located more in the center of your chest. As you bring your attention to your chest, you also bring your awareness with you.  As you bring your awareness to your heart center, you may also sense a certain energy. Just be aware of that energy, or simply be aware of whatever there is, even if there seems to be nothing special.  Again, don’t worry! You’re not doing it wrong!
            Now, from your heart center, offer gratitude to yourself. Maybe it’s something you have come to like about yourself, or something you have done recently, or maybe it is that, despite everything else, you have shown up here this morning. Offer some gratitude, however small, to yourself.
            Now, from your heart center, offer gratitude to one other person, someone for whom it is easy for you to generate appreciation – a parent, a grandparent, a spouse, a family member, a close friend, a teacher, a mentor, a co-worker, even a beloved pet.  Offer appreciation to one other person.  That person doesn’t have to be perfect.  For the moment, set aside any imperfections and offer gratitude.
            Now, again from your heart center, offer gratitude to someone whom you appreciate a little less, maybe even someone who occasionally can be difficult.  Nevertheless, think of one thing, even something very small, that you can appreciate about that person.  If you have trouble with this, again, don’t worry!
            Finally, from your heart center, offer gratitude to God. That may be very easy for you.  But it may not be.  Perhaps, given the way your life has gone recently, maybe you are not feeling very thankful to God.  Still think of one small thing.  And even if your cup is overflowing, think of one small thing about which you can offer gratitude to God.
            Wherever your attention has gone, bring it back to your heart center for a moment.  Then bring to your whole body, to your body in the pew, to your presence in this sanctuary.  And when you are ready, I invite you to open your eyes.

            In the last few years, I have been reading the gospels – not so much as a simple narrative account of the life of Jesus – but rather as a training manual for discipleship. This includes some lists of dos and don’ts, like his instructions to the disciples before he sends them out on their own.  But, also, what they are to do when they encounter challenges.  For as important as this basic teaching is, it is not enough.  It is not enough for everything they will encounter, every situation they will meet. It is not enough for the life with God to which Jesus is calling them. For this they need to learn to live from their hearts.
Mark 6 is a good example of this.            In verse 7, we learn that Jesus sends the disciples out and he gives them a list of does and don’ts – Pack as light as you can.  There is no special equipment needed and there is no need for a special appeal for funds.  Keep it simple.  Stay in modest accommodations and be content. If you’re not welcomed, don’t make a big scene.  Just shrug your shoulders and walk away.
            The disciples then head out to continue the work of Jesus – casting out demons, healing the sick, and so forth.  They return in verse 50.  Sandwiched in between their going out and their coming back is the story of the death of John the Baptist, our gospel lesson for last week.  It not only presages the death of Jesus. It also lets the disciples know – and lets us know – that living in the way of Jesus is not always a tiptoe through the tulips.
            So, when they return, Jesus doesn’t show them a power point on sales figures, give them a motivational speech and then send them out again.  Instead, he takes them away to a quiet place, a lonely place, a deserted place.  They need to rest and reconnect with God.

            They go so far as to sail across the Sea of Galilee. But, unfortunately, this does not stop the crowds. People run all the way around the sea.  Some even get there before Jesus and the disciples reach the shore.
            When Jesus sees them, he doesn’t turn the boat around or drop anchor and stay offshore.  He gets out and he looks on them with compassion.  His heart goes out to them.  Then he gets back to work.
            Late in the day, the disciples go to Jesus and say, “We’re a long way out in the country and it’s very late.  Give your blessing and send these people off so they can go home and get some supper.”
            Jesus looks at them and says, “You feed them.”
            The disciples are aghast! “What? Are you serious? We could spend a fortune and not feed them all!”
            But Jesus was serious. So, he said, “How many loaves of bread do you have?”
            They said, “Five. Plus two fish.”
            Jesus got everyone to sit down.  Then, he took the bread; he gave thanks to God for the bread; he broke the bread; and he gave the bread.  And also the fish.  Everyone – all five thousand – ate as much as they wanted. And they still had 12 baskets left over.

            After the meal was finished, Jesus told the disciples to get in the boat – without him this time – and sail across the sea.  They encounter a stiff wind and can’t make any progress, even though they work all night.
            Jesus has been at prayer all this time.  He walks out to them on the water and intends on going past. They see him, but they don’t realize it’s him. They think they are seeing a ghost.  They are scared out of their wits and they scream.
            But Jesus says to them, “Take heart; it is I; do not be afraid.” He steps into the boat and the wind dies down.  The disciples are at a loss because they didn’t understand what he showed them in the supper.
            They reach the other side.  And their work goes on.

There are times in ministry when the need seems overwhelming and the resources are limited.   When Jesus raises the prospect of feeding the crowds, the disciples are incredulous.  There is no way that we have enough to accomplish this work!
But Jesus simply takes what they have – five loaves and two fish. He gives thanks to God for them and then he shares them.  So, we too in ministry – when we feel as though what we have to offer is not nearly enough for the task in front of us, we should simply take what we have, give thanks, and share, trusting that whatever we have – with God’s power – is enough.
            There are also times in ministry when resistance is fierce, and we may despair that we are making any headway at all.  We may even wonder if we are going to survive.  Then we can remember his word to the disciples – Take heart; it is I; do not be afraid. Rather than losing our heads, we can take heart – we can live out of our heart center.
            And what applies in ministry also applies in our own lives – to live that life with God to which Jesus is calling is to open our hearts to those around us; it is to practice gratitude and generosity at every opportunity; and it is to not lose our heads when we feel threatened, but instead come to our hearts and trust the presence of Jesus.  “Take heart; it is I; do not be afraid.”

So, I invite you once more to get comfortable in your seat, however that it.  Become aware of your body.  Become aware of your breath. Now bring your attention to your heart center.  It may seem the same as before.  It may seem different.  Whatever it is, it’s OK.
Now in your heart center offer some gratitude to God.  Then hold these words – Take heart; it is I; do not be afraid.
And finally, join me in prayer…

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